我的隱憂-My Secret Worry

My Secret Worry-我的隱憂

While fear of death is universal, my worry about death is so overwhelming that there is not a moment passing without my thinking of it. I never bring this up with any other, just because no one will ever realize the seriousness of this problem. I know it very clearly that as long as there is life, there will be death. In addition, though I am still so far away from death, I have been plagued by the thought of it for years. Fortunately, the root of my fear of death lies in my overzealous love for life. I am too timid to think of the end of life, when every worldly affair should be thrown away. How can I carry on without friendship, affection, and joy of being alive? I really hate to leave all these behind. To ease my worry about death, I should make the fullest use of this life I now possess. Concentration on this life can at least temporally make me forget about death. As a matter of fact, I really don＇t need to worry so much about death, for I already have too much to worry about this life.
雖然怕死是舉世皆然，但我對死的擔心是如此不可抗拒，以致於沒有一刻不想到它；我從未對任何人提起，因為沒有人會了解這個問題的嚴重性。我知道得很清楚，只要有生，就會有死；另外，我雖然我離死還很遙遠，卻已經被死的念頭折磨多年。還好，我對死亡的恐懼根源於對生命的過分熱愛，我太膽小，不敢思考生命的終點----一切塵世的事務都要拋棄。沒有友情、愛情和生之喜悅，我怎麼過得下去？我真的很不甘心死後遺留下這一切。若要減輕對死亡的憂慮，我應該就目前所擁有的一生做最充分的?用，全神貫注於這一生至少使我暫時忘卻了死亡。其實，我實在不必這麼擔憂死亡，因為這一生該擔憂的已經夠多了。